Chapter 3 - continued

I finished reading and underlining parts of Chapter 3 that I felt pertinent. This chapter has invoked a lot of feelings.

I will bullet some of the sentences I underlined:

• What is your (my) barrier?
• Do you (I) sabotage your (my) efforts? If so why?
• When you start down a successful path what barrier springs up to block your path.
• The barrier itself is the root of your (my) problem
• Your (my) deepest desire is not for food but for the experience of home and a desire for love
• Every moment of unconscious eating is a moment when you are starving from a lack of healthy self-love and struggling to find it elsewhere
• We are to receive our true nourishment from the Divine
• Do you(I) have more faith in the power of your(my) problem or in the power of a miracle to solve it
• The Creator can not be left out of your thinking
• In over eating fear has found in you(me) a perversely comfortable home and it will not move out of it's lair so easily
• Fear is a psychic tyrant that has no intention of letting its slave go free
• NOTHING - not your best intention, your will power, or your self-discipline - has the power to overrule its (fears) authority. ONLY God does
• Fear all ready has it altar
• Establish an altar for love

The assignment given for this chapter is to create an "alter" for love. A corner where you can sit and read this book, your Bible, or other books that will draw you closer to Him. It should help fortify loves power in your (my) mind

The KEY to right living is a text found in the Bible. "Love the Lord with all thy heart and all thy might."

On any given day when you feel a trigger, when you are deeply drawn to the ritualistic dance of self-hatred that is overeating, you will have more power to resist if on that day you have already prayed and given thanks to God.

Once my "altar" is set up I will take a picture, describe it and share what I have gained from it.

There is so much more in this chapter as it was a long one. I will have to go back and reread it and look at my written journal and try to absorb even more.

One thing that I use to love to do was cook. I quit cooking as I was afraid of the food. Afraid I would eat too much. I have started to cook again. My Christmas cooking was laden with sugar and fat but that will change after the end of this coming week. I am excited to try out low fat vegan recipes as I have found a web site that has a lot of delicious recipes, which if you have ever tasted bad, bland vegan cooking you would know that cooking it just right is important.

This evenings blog is rather boring as I am tired. I hope the next one isn't so boring.